Anyone who is married knows the possible awkwardness of the past life thoughts. The weird little dribbles that enter your mind about the ex-boyfriend/girlfriend and if it's even worth mentioning. Today for whatever reason my past life fella came up in conversation with a friend who asked me something and it actually felt weird to say his name. I heard and said it all the time for like ten years and now I haven't heard or said it for a long, long time. I remember my mom saying 'it feels like a different life ago' when we'd ask her about her life in high school or dating my dad. I thought of that comment.
Then tonight Ed dropped me off to run in Giant Eagle to drop off a movie and the man lurking around the red box was wearing the ex-man's cologne. I am super smell sensitive. Smell is an instant memory. I shook it off and thought how weird, two thoughts in one day while there has been months/years without one. Then I went outside and jumped in the passenger seat, Eddy was singing along with a happy country song and Jovi was trying to keep up in the backseat. I looked out the window and thought how I liked Ed's cologne. Then I saw boyfriend past pull up next to us and get out of his car!! Such weird timing. Ed and I just looked at each other, acknowledged the neighbor car character and sang the country song. I saw my past/present life in little glimpses and thought how happy I was to be in my car with Eddy and Jovial at that moment. "Thank God for all I've missed...because it lead me hear to this..."---What is it with these oh so fitting Darious Rucker songs lately??
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