Day 11: non-coincedental movie craving.

I Just watched the Adjustment Bureau and I soooo super loved it. I’ve been wanting to see it for awhile just because I liked the premise and of course Matt Damon, who I could pretend is still doing Borne Identity in little glimpses of this movie.  So this movie just was the perfect ingredient to what I have been brewing about sooo much lately.  I need to process it before super quick watching another movie with Ed (who is currently watching ‘the eagle’) who can do back to back movie nights. Sooooo the idea of this movie is just so coincidentally my life process right now. I loved it! This is a little fresh so forgive the craziness of this blog. Everyone keeps yelling at me that I haven't been writing them enough so here you go--unedited :( .

So the movie is based on the idea that there is ‘a plan’. You know ‘the plan’, the best plan for our lives. And that things happen all along our lives to nudge us back onto the plan. Some things happen by chance but some for an unknown (to us) reason that keeps us on the plan.  There are ‘angel’ like folks who live among us and cause little things to happen to keep us on plan though they only know a part of the plan and just trust ‘the chairmen’ who put together the plan. 

Now this is much of christianity in a nutshell or at least church-ianity.  Let's be real. 

Comments like: "It was just God's will." --said by many churchy minded folks at my father's funeral..(I absolutely don't believe it was God's will for my daddy to die.)  Or "God meant for us to be together. Everything in my life is so I could meet you...blah, blah..---said in 99% of chick-flicks, wedding ceremonies etc.  (I absolutely think a person could marry many different people. It's who you choose to make it work with and then they become your 'magic' person) Okay...enough examples though I could think of many more. 

Now the movie shows this struggle. There is a plan, but one thing happens and the plan changes!! This is crazy to think of the endless repercussions that our little words and actions have on the world. The grand finale ending of the movie (i won't tell the ending) is that free will is a gift and we can choose love, we can choose right. Here’s the ending line which I am just chewing on: ‘Most people live life on the path we (divine people) set for them. They are to afraid to explore any other way.  But once in a while people come along and knock down all the obstacles we put in your way. People who realize free will is a gift, you'll never know how to use until you fight for it. I think that's The Chairman's real plan. And maybe, one day, we won't write the plan. You will.”  

Interesting thought and just what I’ve been brewing about lately.  Do I write my own plan or is it already established for me?? "I know God has a purpose and a plan and a hope and a future for me..." But isn't God supporting me whatever direction I walk in? If his spirit is in me and around me, does it really matter where I go?  I say I just want to be where He is. “God, I want to be where you are” ….which is ridiculous because I can’t be where He isn’t.  Is He in one place more than another? So, then it doesn't matter where I am, I know exactly who I am called to be and what God wants to do in that place. Reconcile people to Him. Love. So I might as well just do whatever makes me happy. UGH!

  “All we have is our choices” is another line from the movie.  This thought can cause headache ramifications and destroyed theologies such as a ‘soulmate’ or a perfect person that you are intended to be with or a job/position that is what you are ‘meant’ to do.  

paradox 1:  I am writing my own plan but God has a plan for me. ‘Make level paths for your feet’ but at the same time ‘God will make your paths straight ..’ 

paradox 2: God has giving me the sense, the free will to do whatever/go wherever. But I just want to do his will. But what if my will is his will....is his will my will??? 

paradox 3: Surrender is easy to throw up your hands and say, do whatever with my life God. Here you go, take control. I use to think I was soo brave and noble to pray these things to God.  But then what happens when he gives it back to you and says ‘Here you go, let’s go on an adventure. What do you want to do??’ UGH! I don’t know! I thought you decided this stuff. 

Someone prayed over me a little while back and said that ‘God sees me and made me multi-talented. That I’m not indecisive but one of those rare people who could really do almost anything.’ UGH. Again. I don’t know what to do. My decision tree has so many branches (another quote from the movie).

See that movie. Let me know what you think of it. And what you think of the theology behind it.Watch out for your weird coincidences everyday, even spilling your coffee, could be arranged by angels to keep you on a certain course or maybe you are just dropsy.