The beginning of my 30 daily not coincedences

I was in a bet with someone and we had to write in a blog everyday for 30 days. That was my dream last night. It was a weird dream and when I woke up I thought I should do that because I have been really bad at writing in the blog that I was initially really excited about starting. I am always an excited starter of things. Sigh. So I will be writing everyday for the next 30 days about the crazy little happenings of God speaking to me throughout my day and in my dreams as well. God is always speaking and I becoming more attune to listening lately and the conversation are just undeniably crazy, amazing and need to be shared. There are SO many funny not coincidences that happen to me consistently and that dream got me excited to write them.

  The preface to this is that throughout my life I am ALWAYS asking some form of the question, 'God, what should I do or what do you think about this??' My life metaphor has been a Choose your own Adventure book (for those of you who missed out on the joy of childhood in the 80's, it's a series of books that after you read one chapter it has you answer a question about how you want to decide the next step of the adventure and then you turn to the chapter with your decision). I was and still am so very indecisive, not because I don't know what I want but because I don't want to miss anything. (Same reason I didn't shower much in college. I didn't want to be dirty I just didn't want to miss anything exciting in the dorms.) So, these books and life are frustrating to me because if you choose one chapter then you automatically miss another one!!! I would read all the options of the book and my friends would yell at me because I cheated. 

All this to say that I am again at another end of a chapter in life and I have to decide which chapter is next. Sadly in my usual manner, I have been smacked with gusts of anxiety, then fear, worry, depression, repeat... and almost completely paralyzed by this cycle. I have made pro and con lists, played magic 8 ball with the bible and asked my husband,...'ready, set, say yes or no...go!' Still, I have no idea what to do next.

I don't know what to decide yet but I know God is alive and speaking and cares about my answer.  I have sooooo many not coincidences that I can't wait to share but the first one that I will start with is that I decided this morning I will write this blog and make it about there not being coincidences. Then this morning I only got to be in church for a little blurb of the sermon because we had to be at an aftenoon wedding and the part of the sermon I sat in for was the pastor saying, "There is nothing that happens by accident. God speaks through movies, a billboard, anything...just listen." Which is exactly what my little blogo will be about so be excited...stay tuned. This will be juicy and hilarious.